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Hello creatures and critters and everything in between.

Today the day started well, I woke up early today, which is rare for me since I usually like to sleep very late. These last few days it has been raining non-stop where I live, something I don't like very much since for once I have the time to go out and I can't. However, it's been a pretty productive few days work-wise, which I'm relieved about. Yesterday I was studying all afternoon, so today I have been taking a little break from my studies. I've been working on my website, this little corner of the internet that is mine and nobody else's.

Making a web page is much more fun and easy than I thought it would be. Yes, a lot of it is code, but if the web page is only going to have text, like mine... Then this is more than enough. It feels good to create something and see it work. Unfortunately, it's been taking up my study time, but as I said before, I needed a break.

I will try to be clear and direct with my feelings for once in my life. This website is giving me the freedom to customize my experience to the maximum, something I plan to take advantage of. So I don't care what others say. No, I am not human. Yes, that's how it's going to be. I like who I am, and nothing and no one will change that about me. These past few days my jackrabbit heart has been beating non-stop, in an almost constant shift with nervousness and anxiety. I've been biting my lips so much I have little cracks on them. However, today I woke up with antlers on top of my head, floppy ears on both sides of my skull. Today is a day of reflection, a day to take it a little easier. Deer day.

I like to think that my days are defined by what kintype I feel closest to in the moment. The days when I feel more like a cat I am curious and somewhat lazy, the days when the canine mind is stronger I need to run and jump, the days when I am a Watcher are days of study and reflection, the jackrabbit days are more nervous and unrestrained, the deer days are quieter....

Having multiple species is strange. I don't like to compare it to the experiences of plural creatures, because I'm not plural, but that's the way it is. Today is a deer day. And what does a deer day entail? It involves having an antler on my head all day. It involves being quiet, calm. It involves liking vegetables more than other days (I'm a carnivorous creature at heart, I love meat).

Changing the subject slightly, I wish that being a creature would help me get closer to people. Help me get out more. It's been raining non-stop these days, which makes it hard for me to go outside and get some air. I have been studying very hard, but I have to get on with finishing the projects that have a few finishing touches left to be ready. And study. Study so hard.

I like to study, and at the same time I hate it. Being a Watcher, in that respect, helps. Watchers are not social creatures, but they are scholars, they are very studious. Their life depends on studying and storing information about the servers and worlds they visit. I miss the Archives. They were huge libraries, meant to store and classify information. If I needed something from a world, I could go there and take a look. And everything was so well organized... Nowadays I try to keep my own Archives, but it's not the same. In the age of technology, archives like ours are scarce. They are inefficient, my superiors would say. Well, they are no longer here.

I miss... I miss hiding among the bookshelves in my first days of my stay. It drove my mentors crazy, but it was wonderful. The first few days in the tower were painful, as I was growing wings and my body was still adjusting to its new biology, but the promises they made to me when it was all over were worth it. Yes, it hurt like hell. And they changed my body. But it was for the better. And when the pain finally went away? The flying lessons with ---------, learning to read Galactic and Cosmic, learning to create my own worlds and destroy them, learning code and life and love. They didn't like it when I ran away, but I had no choice.

I think that's enough for today. Didn't mean to get all sappy. The past should remain in the past. I have my own future to look up to, so I should take advantage of what I have learned in the past so as not to repeat it in the future. I am strong, I am brave, I am smart. They couldn't take any of that away from me. I built that, I built myself. I survived it all, and I'm still here. The change is within us. No one can take that away from us.

Bark, hiss, bite, run.

You are strong, you are brave, you are great. You are you.

Signed,

-Watcher

Good day creatures and critters, and everyhing in between.

Today I slept in a little. I was dead tired yesterday because I stayed up reading and watching a movie, one that I didn't even finished. Today the weather seems kinder than other days, because it's not raining. It's still very cold though. I like cold days, don't get me wrong, but the weather has been very unpredictable lately, and that's something I don't like. Not to blame humans, since a change in temperatures was bound to happen sooner or later, but climate change is an issue that should be addressed more and better, in my opinion.

Aside from this entrie, I won't work on my website today. I need to focus on my studies, as I'm a little behind on some subjects. I'm worried about one of my university projects. Even though I've already completed the interview and divided the project into different sections, I've barely written any content yet. Yesterday, I did some research on municipal data for the city council, which is a step in the right direction, but there's still a lot to do. So much to do, and so little time!

On a more nonhuman note, today is a dog day. Dog days are my favorite, as I have a little more energy in my body than usual. Dog days also lead me to go out more and to consider my body's and mind's needs to be sociable and get outside. However, despite being more of a dog today than other days, I feel strangely... tired. And a little worried, too. I'll try to subside those thoughts throughout the day, but unfortunately, we greyhounds are very anxious, and it's something that can't be avoided.

I will try my best to meet my goals today despite my tiredness. Because I am a dog.

Bark, hiss, bite, run.

You are strong, you are brave, you are great. You are you.

Signed,

-Watcher