Poems and writings

Loving being fictionkin

I love being fictionkin. I love being a creature that exists solely outside of this realm, this universe. And yet, I'm still here. Because it lives in me. For others, it may sound weird: “Oh, that's a Watcher from Minecraft?!? That's so weird!”. For me, it's not weird, it's who I am. A Watcher that has wandered too far into this world while World-hopping, and now it's stuck here.

Sometimes I have to stop what I'm doing and think to myself: I'm fictionkin. I'm fictionkin. Past me would flip at that. Imagine I was able to go back in time and told my past self that I'm a fictional species. They would flip.

Yeah, my body is different from my kind. But Watchers can change forms, can't they? And yet, I can't change back, because I'm bound to the rules of this world. Creatures here don't have magic. They don't have the Universe's power to help them.

I don't know how I was able to get here. On Earth. Some humans found me, sewed my wings into my back, inside for no one to see, and ripped me off my powers, leaving scars and bruises, but they could not hide who I am. What I am. But it was meant to be, all along. To live in a realm that it's not quite my own, but it's still a World. And, as a Watcher, it's my job to Watch it. To care for it.

They hid my wings, but they didn't took them. I still have them. I learned to hide my true form in human flesh. Learned to seem like them, to fit in in their World. Because I live among them. Learned their manners and language. And yet, after so many years, I have trouble with their language, their mannerisms. Because I'm not human. How could I be human?

I love listening to you talk about your experiance as a Watcher. Because its nearly identical to my experiance as Voidkin.

Just. An observer. Once passively watching, now i have a body and can interact??? Wtf?

It also reminds me of stories of Biblical Angels. How they're often described as jealous of humans. That they don't want to just Watch, but to participate too.

Yes, yes, you get it! That's exactly it! I was supposed to just Watch! But now I get to live in this planet, to experience life, and love, and death! And once I'm done, I'll get to Watch again, but for now I'm here. And I'm going to cherish that moment until I'm done.

I wouldn't exactly put it as jealous of humans. I'm not jealous. It's more like I admire them. How far they've come in terms of technology, education, laws... They're living in a world full of possibilities, and in their short lives most of them live them at their fullest. They travel, they get to experience a million different things, know about different cultures... Yeah, they make mistakes, and sometimes I face-palm a lot about the state of politics nowadays... Because for me, it's very clear. Humans were made for love, for creation, for cherishing the little things. And that's something worth Watching.